So I'm clinically depressed?

So I'm clinically depressed? Stuttering makes life pointless, I wanna get ripped to impress people so I can have FRIENDS. I wanna learn Mandarin Chinese because it's useful and I can meet more people when I'm learning it which can get me FRIENDS. i wanna get better at brawlhalla a video game I play so I can impress people and get FRIENDS. all I fucking want is a friend but there's no point in doing any of those things because stuttering completely ruins my potential. No wonder I'm clinically fucking depressed, I've just been looking for a way forward but I have nowhere to go because every direction is ruined by stuttering. I'm not motivated at all because of this stupid curse I wish they had a cure.