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So I would rate my stutter as mild on a good day and mild-moderate on a bad day. Bad days usually happen on high stress days (so rotations, haha). Neither I nor my preceptors ever directly addressed my stutter. It was obvious that I stutter, and obvious that there was no real way to control it. No one else ever addressed it directly with me, but once during IPPE's I requested a transfer from a pharmacy that one of my friends was rotating at, and my friend said the RPh was like, "What's wrong with that guy?!" after the call. My friend just laughed and explained that I stutter but was otherwise just as competent as anyone else and that was that. Interacting with patients was really hard in the beginning, and just being new with imposter syndrome definitely accentuates the anxiety (and stutter). Once I started being comfortable with counseling, which comes with experience, my anxiety and stress reduced a ton and my stutter lessened. I would say a few months to a year was the acclimation period. I still mildly stutter and will have very brief blocks/stammers at the beginning of conversations, but I guess I just considerable it part of the process now? Once I get going and am past the initial greeting I'm pretty fluent during counseling/conversations with others. My stutter still remains in the mild-moderate zone when initiating conversations with most physicians that I don't know well, but is very mild with PAs and NPs. Obviously it's an issue that I perceive with the power dynamic, but even that has slowly improved over the years. I think I'm kind of weird from a stuttering standpoint in that if I am giving a well prepared presentation, then my stutter is rather mild. So I don't have any pointers or observations there. Things will get better as you gain confidence in your abilities! I now stutter less at work compared to other areas of my life, which definitely was not the case during school and rotations.