I know how you feel, but I rather be a servant to god then anything else, Most of us hate when we see some being slaves to their desires or to money or for the validation of other people or to themselves so they become narcissistic. When you pray to the creator of everything you become humble and have a standard for morality because god gave us rules so we don’t guess what’s good and what’s bad he literally gave us the answers to the exam and all we have to do is answer.