Does your personality suffer when you stutter ?

Does your personality suffer when you stutter ? I used to honestly think that it wasnt possible to be happy when I stuttered.. Everytime I used to stutter it would absolutely deflate and drain my personality. I would become more kiss ass to everyone, laughing at stuff I didnt even find funny, saying things that I didnt even want to say to gain approval, and even hold back what I wanted to say all together and just repress everything about me. Even the actions I would take would change. I would act in ways that wasnt congruent with who I was to gain more approval and validation when in truth I would get none. Causing me to try harder and harder seeking that approval with everything I had until I would be completely drained and exhausted at the end of the day with tears rolling down my face. Maybe your personality doesn't deflate the same way mine did, but if it does at all, and you know if it does, you have work to do. What work you ask? Let's look at why it is deflating.. What deflates within you in order for your personality to suffer? YOUR SELF ESTEEM. Your damn self esteem takes a hit when you stutter causing it to fall so in order for it to rise back up so you can feel a bit whole again, you look for external ways (validation/acceptance from others) to fill you back up. Causing the fake personality. Why does your self esteem fall everytime you stutter and how to fix it so it doesn't? It falls because your perception of the stutter itself. You think stuttering is bad and negative and shouldn't happen. So everytime you stutter, you suffer a hit. What if you were able to stutter with a mindset that helps your self esteem? What if everytime you stutter you become more open, more vulnerable, more authentic, truer personality? Its 100% possible. You just have to see stuttering for what it is.. A indicator. It's just an indicator. Of how you are feeling, how much value you are giving the other person and their perception of you, if you are holding in repressed emotions/thoughts. Its honestly a blessing to have. I know it may trigger you hearing me say that but I can honestly say I made the biggest improvements in my speech when I started using my stutter as a signal of awareness. I stopped seeing my stutter as something that held me back to something that allowed me to be free. I would stutter severely in a conversation and then later analyze it to WHY I stuttered. I would see that people were passing by, and there was a bit of background noise, and it was someone who I looked up to etc. I would analyze all of this then work to improve myself in those situations next time. Stuttering can literally be your superpower if you let it. Let it.