I’m not going to be prescriptive or say everything’s going to be alright. I just want to send you some support and validate your feelings. Honestly I think learning sign language is a good idea. It’d be a win-win situation. Either you’re right and somehow find a community where you communicate through sign language, or you’re wrong and you just picked up another cool skill in life. As for your for your love life…you’re right, being single isn’t that bad. But I hope you come to the point where you choose to be single instead of settling on being single. It’s hard to say whether or not you (or anyone else for that matter) will ever find love. I know some perfectly kind , fluent people who are still single in their 40s/50s. Sure, maybe you could have hooked up with someone sooner in life if you didn’t stutter. It sucks that it wasn’t easier for people like us. But whether or not you remain single is up more to chance than your stutter. Good luck. Hope you feel better