c’mon man. You gotta think positive. I live a very full life and I have a moderate-severe stutter. Ik It can seem debilitating at times but having a bad mentality doesn’t help. I’m sorry if that is a bit rude but it’s ok. Your stutter doesn’t define you, it’s not who you are. It’s just a part of you, a singular part. Don’t stress about how you sound, I know we all do but I mean have a positive attitude. Idk tho I guess I’ve been lucky that I found the Blank Stuttering Center. https://blankcenterforstuttering.org I used to think like you too but they helped change that.