Hey there, as a 38 year old guy working in web, I never thought I'd be doing what I'm doing with my shitty stutter. A stutter that I've had since i was a toddler. Yes, I know it sucks. Believe me, I've been there and everyone on this sub has been there, is still there in some way, shape or form. And believe me, I know you're scared. But it's this fear that you must choose to take on headfirst. The best way to get over something is to go through it. Life is about facing our fears. I know it sounds cliche, but everyone in this life has something they are scared of. Our fear just happens to be something not so easily hidden. Start by winning small victories. Saying a friendly "Hi" when walking by someone at the park. Talk to family over the phone. Maybe go to the beach when nobody is around and just fucking scream at the horizon. We can't let our handicap dictate our happiness. We must fight and it doesn't matter if we fail, because if we try, we always win. It's not about fluency. At least not yet. It's about not giving up on life and trying and trying. Once we get a handle on never quitting and never hiding, then we can tackle issues like improving fluency. Those small victories will add up, man. It takes time, but what else are you going to do right? Just keep putting yourself out there. Nobody is as hard on us for stuttering than us. That's a fact. In reality, nobody else much cares. Everyone has their own lives to worry about. So let's do the same, and worry about how we can live as well-adjusted individuals instead of having imagined worries about what the mob thinks. Fuck the mob. Hang in there! And speech therapists do help. You've done a great job of convincing yourself that things are hopeless and I assure you that it's far from hopeless. The mind is a powerful tool. It can be motivating or it can be depressing, all depending on where you decide to point it. Small victories. Talk to yourself in your room. Get used to hearing your voice. Sing to yourself and enjoy moments of fluency. Build from there. Little by little, all those inches will add up and this moment in your life will look farther and farther away. Good luck friend. edit: words