Hey there, I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through such a tough time with your stuttering. It's completely understandable that you might be feeling overwhelmed by the habits that have developed as a result. First and foremost, it's important to be kind to yourself. Stuttering can be challenging, but it doesn't define who you are as a person. Acceptance and self-compassion can go a long way in helping you navigate these feelings. Consider seeking support from a speech therapist or a support group if you haven't already. They can provide you with strategies to manage your stuttering and offer a safe space to share your experiences with others who understand. Additionally, mindfulness and relaxation techniques can help reduce anxiety and stress associated with stuttering. Breathing exercises and meditation can be beneficial in calming your mind. Remember, your journey is unique, and it's okay to seek help and support when needed. You're still the same person you've always been, and with time and support, you can regain a sense of control and confidence. Feel free to reach out here or to friends and family whenever you need to talk. We're here for you