I cant do this anymore: introvert with a mind of extrovert

I cant do this anymore: introvert with a mind of extrovert I am 25F and I stutter almost 20y now. My stutter is mid-severe: when I am with my bf or friends/family, I stutter just a little, but in situations like job interviews or speaking in front of people, I freeze. I have MSc in social work and I am currently looking for a job for almost a year now. Honestly, I loveeee life but because of my stutter I have a feeling I am not living my life as I should (without stuttering). I missed a lot of oportunities (my biggest wish was to apply in Erasmus - but I was scared), a lot of friendships (because I am affraid to speak, people see me as introvert and quiet) and a lot of good debats. I am very extrovert, I like hanging out with people, I like to talk, I like to make presentations BUT I just CANT. I cant because I always have thoughts like: "*just dont stutte*r". And when I think of this, I immediately start to stutter. I had a speech therapy - it helped me just during therapy, in stress situation, like job hunting, is always the same shit. **I cry a lot because of this.** I am very smart and i want to show my abbilities, but when I start stuttering during interviews, everything goes to hell. I just cannot think of any employee, who would like to hire someone who stutters (and my job requires working with people). Do you think I should mention my stutter in motivational letter? Second thing: my partner is getting very frustrated because I cannot find a job. He is the sweetest person ever and he wants to move in with me, but I have to find job first (my parents dont support me more cuz I graduated). What should I do? Should I accept low paid job (and job, that is below my education)? I cannot think straight anymore. I feel like I am drawning every day more. I constantly think:" *why me?*". Dont tell me about positivity and that stutter must not define me - I know all of this, I just cant help. I am scared that one day would this become too much for me....