I feel you. I never liked speech therapists and never went to one, but I was approached by a few and met a few, they all gave me tips on how to ‘overcome’ my stutter and I didn’t even ask for help! (I’m not saying if someone’s a speech therapist then they are inherently bad not necessarily, but that’s my experience) I have always held a grudge against them! I can’t let into my life anyone who thinks there’s something about me that’s terribly wrong and ‘abnormal’ that I need to change! Please, don’t lose hope, and I wish you come to a point in your life where you stop fighting yourself. I know it’s frustrating, stuttering frustrates me, too, but I know I have to accept it as part of me, and whoever has a problem with that that is unwelcome. I highly recommend you take the time to read this https://www.didistutter.org/blog/category/speech-language-pathology This blog is awesome! They celebrate stuttering (I know it sounds weird and many people would probably think well who can even embrace their stutter? Well many and I’m included). I mean I think we need this. I’m so done being ridiculed, being looked down upon, being told I should change to be able ‘to speak normally.’ We are just different. You can talk to me btw.