I just kind of had an emotional breakdown at a public setting today.

I just kind of had an emotional breakdown at a public setting today. So I got made fun of my stutter today. After many many years. In a public setting which is my worst nightmare. And these aren't even my friends, my boyfriends so I don't even know the people I was around. But it just felt like I was back to 1st grade where other kids around me would just make fun of me, for not being able to spell out a sentence properly. But I thought I had gotten it under control. But after today I barely feel like socializing again for a very long time. I realize it's probably because I have been by myself for long periods of time due to the social distancing, but it hurt so bad. Its like my biggest insecurity someone put it on a silver platter for someone else to make fun of. Ugh worst feeling ever.