postr/StutterOctober 27, 2023

I can't take this anymore

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I can't take this anymore I am 21 years old and I've been stuttering since birth. I can't live with it anymore. I didn't finish high school because of my speech. I avoid contact with people. For the past few months, I've been confined to my house. It's hard for me to find a job, I can't get myself to start. I'm afraid people will mock me. My girlfriend and I have been together for a year, but we are in a long-distance relationship. The only time I don't stutter is when I'm with her; she's the only one who can calm me down. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm mentally destroyed. I've been employed at a few places over the past 3 years, but my stuttering always hindered me in socializing with people. My speech is getting worse and worse. Sometimes I want to literally cut my tongue with a knife just so I don't have to talk to anyone. I apologize for my grammar mistakes, I don't know how to write english very well.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Feared Words & NamesAvoidance & SubstitutionHiding & ConcealmentShame & EmbarrassmentSadness & HopelessnessHelplessness & Agency

Codes (2)

perceived_judgmentsocial_pressure