I FEEL THIS! I got told once by my art high school art class teacher my work was a mix of 'the best' and 'the worst' in the class....And thats stuck with me because that's how I live my life. I try to wing things because thinking too much makes my stutter worse, so one minute I'm nailing a work presentation or I'm the funny guy commanding a group of people at a social event...the next I'm in cold sweats thinking about the phone call I have to make or avoiding the new guy at work because I can't introduce myself to them. It does make me feel like a fraud when, from the outside, it would appear I have it all. But the reality is every time I'm thinking about doing something new, my mind is playing out a million scenarios of how to get through the situation..and if the chance of embarrassment is just too high, I won't do it, which makes me feel even more ashamed of myself that I won't put myself out there to try new things. It's all very emotionally draining. I don't think I'll ever have my stutter fully figured out, but I have found embracing does make it slightly easier - I always make sure I order the coffee I can't say (a 'f-f-f-flat white') just to prove to myself I can get things I really want!