19F. Long story short, it's been a hot mess. Not trying to overuse the word but some things/events/people really do trigger my hatred towards it. Other days I couldn't care less what you think about it. I've had moments where I've sticken (?) up for myself and others where I let others make negative comments. I'll think I'm good and don't need speech therapy but then a month or so later I'm stuck in the hole again