I would stick it out. I know right now things seem hectic and unbearable but trust me in the long run it will help you. I work in government regulating high price commodities and sometimes have to refuse entry on shipments and I have to contact the importer explaining why it’s not allowed in. Sometimes these people can be brutal since there is a lot of money involved. I still stutter till this day and sometimes dread calling them. But hey If I’ve made it this far in life you can too. You are a strong minded individual. Take care and god bless