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I feel defeated by this disease. In every aspect I am doing alright - I have friends, a girlfriend, a decent job in an office with good benefits thats not warehouse work and I keep in touch with my family. But can't help but feel ruined by my stutter, I want a career in politics and part and parcel of that is public speaking. But the anxiety just makes it impossible, even pre recording isnt an option as I know people will see it and still stutter. People are willing to be so accomodating and it just sucks I have to live this way, I mean I still have my arms and legs but feel so limited in what I can achieve. Some days I wish I could trade my legs for a life without a stutter. For one of the first times in my life i'm feeling depressed, sorry for the rant just want to vent.