Nice. The fact you told me that you’ve had blocks, and they’ve **disappeared** but came back in 2019, lets me know that you CAN/DID get rid of it and it’s not genetic. But, I think the traumatic memory came back and then you relapsed in 2019. Try to get rid of those feelings associated with blocking completely like I did in the post above. And when I mentioned about speaking to myself, I meant talking out loud. I had a bad habit of talking out loud to myself when I was alone. If I was hungry, I would talk to myself and say “Damn, I’m hungry. I don’t know what to order”. Self talk that was out loud like that. But for me, when I stopped talking to myself, I found out it REALLY lessened my anxiety and helped my speech a lot.