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Being honest with my boyfriend EDIT: yayyy I told him and even though he had some wrong assumptions about stuttering (he thought I only stuttered when feeling anxious, when it's rather the other way around), he was perfectly understanding. Maybe it doesn't seem like much but it is for me, being that before finding about this forum I would have never thought to be upfront about it. So thanks guys! Basically my boyfriend and I have been together for almost 3 years, we love and tell each other everything but I never talk to him about my stutter. I never even told him openly, he just figured it out on his own and didnt think much of it because he said he just thought of it as a small part of my personality. He told me this when after a while it got worst and he started joking about it (in a loving way, or so he thought- he stopped after I got mad and finally "came out" to him). The point is that, especially after quarantine, my stutter has worsened. Of course he tries not to point out, but he did actually joke about it yesterday (mocking the word I stuttered on- he sounds like an asshole but I swear he's not). Anyway this has mad me visibly more irritable and sort of depressed. I always try to power through it and not let it get the best of me, but I'm a pretty sensitive person and I'm awful at hiding my emotions. My question is: should I talk to him about the psychological side of my stutter, and how much it affects my mood? He is not a very empathetic person tbh, so the thought of it makes me very anxious. But at the same time I can't continue to tell him that I'm ok when he asks me "are you ok? Did I do something wrong?". I am not ok at times, because I always keep all of the suffering to myself. I never talk to anyone about how much it all damages my mental health. So should I be super honest and tell him, even if I'm not sure he will understand? Sorry for the super long and boring post guys