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Feeling like crap Had a negative experience today, I got on the bus with my usual online booked ticket and the bus driver asked for my name cause he had the booking in front of him on screen. This has never happened before so I wasn’t expecting it and I managed to say my name with only a mild stutter but then all day I was thinking about how I have to get the bus home and what if he asks my name again. It made me feel so bad, I had an anxiety attack and then shut down. All I was thinking was how scared I was to be an adult when I was a kid/teen cause I knew how tough it was going to be with my stammer/social anxiety. Like I feel like I never had a chance and I’m just doomed from the beginning. I get so fucking sad and angry and when moments like that happen I feel weak and want to stay in my parents house forever and never interact with the outside world. But yeah that’s my rant, just really hurting rn due other non stutter related issues, today did not help my mental state