I've had to deal with many hardships myself. For me it led to years of hiding my depression before speaking out and getting some help. Its not easy living life like this but it does help to know there a are people out there who truly do know what it's like. On really bad days I will turn to some co-workers at my job who've I've grown to be friends with and they will help me through it. Just try talking to some people who you feel will listen to you, no matter how long it takes for you to say what's on your mind. Best of luck.