Anyone else ever completely shut down and not talk?

Anyone else ever completely shut down and not talk? (18M) Lately, my stuttering has gotten so severe I’ve just completely began to isolate and not use my voice at all. Hell, I kind of forgot what it sounds like. I stopped getting my daily practice because of online school and a mental health break (extreme depression) In sports (lacrosse) I don’t really communicate with my team and it causes me to feel isolated. Do you think that stuttering fluency goes in hand with your emotional state? Because mine has been a wreck, and so has my fluency. I feel like I am going to be trapped forever, and I constantly compare myself to others who have the confidence to talk to people freely. I don’t even talk anymore when I used to be a very extraverted and happy individual who put their all into everything they do, and now I am just a mopey quitter who doesn’t talk. I want to use my voice and be comfortable again, but I’ve developed extreme social anxiety from a lack of confidence because of my previous behavior. How can I get out of this rut? I want to improve and be able to live a normal life that doesn’t consist of a constant battle of self loathing, anxiety, and comparing myself to others?