I'm now 36 years old. Just given my first ever staff training session for about 40 mins. I stuttered throughout the presentation with some moments of fluency. Only one guy (a young man) acted like an asshole even though I've been nice to him for a long time. I know the one guy who I'm going to look at differently and keep my distance. Even after the presentation, there was only one guy who gave me props. He was the most educated among the group. His opinion mattered. Am I stressed out? Compared to how stressed I would have been a couple of years ago, I'm not stressed. I've learned to live with my stutter. I'm not red-faced or red-eared like I would be as a teenager. Maybe that's a place of contentment I wish for all my fellow stutterers. I've been through it all in school and in the workplace. I've never gone to drugs because my close relatives have shown me what drugs do to the brain and behaviour of those addicted to it. Just do your best and be centred as much as possible. I'm a Muslim. So, for me, meditating by remembering Allah has helped me from doing many of the evil things that come to mind because of the deep lows that stuttering can put me in.