Please help me! I'm really feeling helpless.
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Please help me! I'm really feeling helpless. I'm 17 and I'm just fed up with my stuttering problem. Just a few minutes back, my mom's frined who lives in our society rang the doorbell and asked where my mom was. I wanted to say that she had gone for walking in the society compound but I messed up. I couldn't open my mouth and say it out loud coz I knew that I'm gonna stutter. For around 5-6 seconds I tried really hard, and then when I said it, I stuttered badly. Somehow I said that my mom has gone out. I could see the awkwardness on her face as well. This incident just shattered my confidence man, I came inside and yelled at myself and I'm pissed off and feeling helpless while writing this. It's been almost 5-6 years since I'm facing this stuttering issue. I remember I used to talk very fluently and smoothly when I was young. And I talked a lot. Idk how this thing developed, god only knows. To be honest, I've started speaking less and interacting with less people to avoid embarrassment. When I speak, and know I'm gonna stutter saying out a specific word, I just take a pause or probably think of an alternative word which would serve the same purpose. And sometimes, I'd act as if I'm thinking/remembering something but the reality is that I'm actually scared to speak out knowing that I'll mess up. What's more disheartening is that my parents don't even acknowledge this as a problem. They ask me to be cool and calm while speaking. Sometimes, my dad yells at me and asks me to talk slowly. Someone who stutters can probably relate with this. I need some help. Thinking about the thought that I'll probably approach a speech therapist after convincing my parents (not gonna be easy) and will get a solution, gives me hope. Also, is there any way to make this situation better? Probably something which I can practice by myself? Idk how appropriate it is to post this on this subreddit, but I'm really desperate for some assistance from people who've been through stuttering. I just searched on reddit to see if there's a subreddit related to stuttering, and thank God I got one:)