Thanks so much for this comment. I am struggling to hold onto hope at the moment. I have good friends and family around me but sometimes it feels so fucking hard. My stuttering is mild/moderate but I haven’t worked out how to control it under stress yet and that’s when it gets worse - hence making employment stressful. My friends are doing teaching degrees, and getting on with their lives all the while I feel like I can’t do any of that. I don’t know what I want to do, I feel so stuck. I keep thinking hmm what job can I do that’s fulfilling that doesn’t require much speaking? It just sucks when literally every job relies on verbal communication to some degree. I’m doing my best to push suicidal ideation away, it’s crazy how my friends don’t even know I’m dealing with these thoughts. I’ve avoided and suppressed my stuttering and all the negative emotions that come along with it for years, recently opening up to some of my friends about it has helped but I haven’t done this with my family yet. I almost don’t want to.. and I don’t know why. I just hope I have a good life with this disability. I want kids, a husband, a nice home.. you know? I’d give anything to be fluent. I’m hoping I become more at peace with it in time and it gets easier, although before it gets easier I know it will have to get harder, that seems to always be the case in life. You’re so strong too, and I admire your courage.