that's fair enough and i respect that. i didn't mean to offend you. my own experience was a little different - went to college, studied liberal arts, was basically told that the world was my oyster and all i had to do was get good grades and once i graduated none of it bore out. in many ways it was the typical middle class millennial experience, but compounded by stuttering of course. now that i have stability i strive for greater independence and attainable goals, but always remembering that illusion i was in during college.