No matter what I study, it's never gonna work

No matter what I study, it's never gonna work I'm thinking about not even going to college only because of the stutter. No matter if i'm the best, it's never gonna be enough without the ability to speak fluently. Hell not even fluently. I would die to just speak with a few repetitions and then keep going. But it's blocks. Timeless, awkward, tense blocks that make me go silent for a whole minute. I don't even want a perfect speech. I want a speech with some repetitions here and there, that's all i ask for. But anyways, i'm basically contemplating not going to college and just exist. I'm just tired and hopeless with anything that the future has to offer. It's never going to be enough when I have this shit.