commentr/StutterNovember 3, 2020

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I feel this. It didn't even dawn on me to consider my stutter a disability until I started joining stuttering communities two or three years ago. I always thought of it as, like, bad acne or a big nose: an annoying part of me, but no more of a hurdle than anything else with a social stigma. I got made fun of as a kid, but that taught me empathy. I've watched people's faces change as they register my stutter, but that taught me fortitude. I've had people try to rush me through a block, but that taught me patience. I've been reduced to my faltering voice but that just made me want to develop my talents and personality. My stutter never got in the way of my education, my friendships, my relationships or my job -- honestly, a stutter has helped me determine who I don't want in my life based on their reactions to and prejuduces against it. An unreliable spoken voice helped me strengthen my written one to the point where the written word has proven to be a viable career for almost 15 years. But I know that's not everyone's experience. My stutter is persistent and inconsistent, but it's also mild. I was so mired in my own stutter that I never stopped and realized that not everyone is lucky enough to have stretches of "good" days until I started going to speech therapy at 30 and my therapist asked me to talk to some of her younger patients, one of whom just stared at me and asked "So when did you get better!?" At my last job, I wrote a LOT about the Americans With Disabilities Act (ADA), and I've connected with PWS who advocate for stuttering to be recognized as a disability. And it made me realize that for lots of my fellow PWS, a stutter HAS eliminated a lot of options that would be available to them if they were more "fluent." A lot of it might be fear-based and Giant in Chains syndrome, but giving them access to adequate resources and support typically only available to others with uncontested disabilities might help a number of folks thrive when they've only known survival.

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Identity & DisabilitySchool & WorkCauses & Variability

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Identity & Self-PerceptionAcceptance & PrideAccess & RightsSeverity & Fluctuation