Humiliation

Humiliation I’m 61 yo. I stutter since 3. I’ve been ridiculed, shamed, double shamed: I felt the shame of both myself and my parents, humiliated, laughed at, sneered at, passed over at job solicitations, promotions, awkward dates, felt the disdain of my father. Now I live on a generous pension as an retired M.Sc. engineer applied physics. I take care for my 90 year old mum and when the final curtain falls, I will move out off this world, I will retire in lone house somewhere on the planes and I will never ever meet people again, except for the groceries I have to do.