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Today was nice I'm a female in my 20s, a coworker informed me that she wanted to confess that she had spoke to others about me. My heart dropped, the voice she had used sounded like it was some false rumor. Then she told me that lately in her classes she had been remaining silent because her mind blanks a lot while talking which causes her to pause frequently while communicating with others. She told me that after watching me give presentations at work weekly she had become confident once again to participate in class discussions. I pause frequent during speech when I hit blocks or need to switch out words that keep tripping me out. The funny thing is at those moments I feel discouraged. I don't belong in college and I shouldn't give presentations, but I would just smile back and move on quickly to the next topic. Afterwards, I would dwell on those thoughts constantly. Apparently, what I had perceived as pauses that made me feel like I was stupid looked very different to her. She said I always seemed so confident even when I paused.