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I stutter and I'm in a pickle Hello, My name is Robert (21), Been stuttering since my first Words, I doubt it's from birth. Short backstory incoming. When I was 2, my dad was an alcoholic , he would hit my mom, my brother (3yrs older) and even a 2 year old me, my brother was taken to my grans and sadly I was still with my mom in a toxic household, one Day they were fighting behind a glass door and my dad shattered the glass while I was knocking on it and crying, I had a 10-20cm glass shard through my baby hands, I was rushed to the hospital and my mom never returned to that house. A month later we turned on the news and my dad had blown himself up, probably by accident, forgot to close the gas tank and went to smoke a cigarette and boom. That's my Best guess, ofc 15 years of being Made fun of, mimicking me and just being disrespected Made it worse through out the 15 years. Back to it, Been trying everything for 10+ years, therpists, meds, hypnotherapy, weed, teaching myself, talking alot to other people. NOTHING WORKS, it really does feel like a curse. Recently while scrolling through reels, I found a guy named Chase, He wasn't making people try to overcome the stutter, but to accept it and control it, The first lesson was free so I said what the hell, I'll try, maybe this could work, from over 400 people he had interviewed and helped, He told me my stutter was the worst he's heard. At the 45min Mark of our 1hour convo, I realized that I could speak sentences at a time without stuttering. The price range was way out of my league, I live in a pretty poor country. He was Kind enough to invite me to one of the group learning sessions, It really helped for 2-3days. So for the past 5 months I've been saving up and he recently announced that he is retiring and taking on the Last group, the price originally was 2.5k for the 13week course but looking at my situation, he was willing to drop it down to 1.8k (he really wanted to take me on for free but we both agreed not to because It May really offend and upset the other stutterers). I was working as a bread Baker helper, basically 4 days a week, 10 hours close to a 500° oven, It really fucked my heart and now I'm stuck, I only saved up 700 and he's retiring, what the hell do I do? I don't want to lose what I worked for and miss the chance to actually help myself. (Don't feel to bad about my past, I'm over it) Thanks for reading, I'd like to hear your suggestions