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Speaking-heavy job I've had a mild stutter since I could speak. Its severity has changed over the years, but now my main blocks are words starting with B, C, D, P, and S. I do better speaking casually to friends/colleagues and have mastered the art of the word-switch to avoid blocks. It's never really hindered my life, except for some light bullying in school and a general fear of speaking to strangers; I have a good education, a loving partner, and am generally well-liked. I recognize how lucky and privileged I am compared to other stutterers. My problem is that my job is making me take a more speaking-heavy role now. I recently had to give two big presentations to about 50 people, and I can't shake the feeling that my stutter is a problem now. I gave one presentation earlier this week, and having been on a bad stutter streak this past month, I knew it was going to be a difficult day. I heard some sighs and some general disinterest when I read things aloud, and I could sense that I was losing the room. I could tell there was some skepticism as to my ability. It definitely made me feel like the village idiot. How do you cope with having a stutter, and yet being put into speaking-heavy roles? I'm going to be dealing with this new position for probably the rest of my working years. I don't want to feel like a failure after every presentation, but I also don't want to limit my potential just because of a stutter.