I think you are looking for an easy or overnight fix and the sooner you accept that isn’t going to happen the sooner you can improve your life. Having a stutter isn’t an end all be all you are making it out to be in your head and part of that is because of your anxiety about it. So stop being stubborn about the anxiety meds and give it a shot! It’s also not going to be an overnight fix and won’t stop you from stuttering in some situations. I’m really curious why you don’t stutter at home as my stutter happens everywhere. Sounds like you may be more relaxed at home and that is why you don’t stutter. Sorry to be tough but sounds like you needed some tough love lol.