yeah it sucks, it almost feels like you can either pretend to be fluent and not really say what you want or you say what you want and stutter. i'm trying to just be more honest and open about my stutter, air out the cob webs, and keep putting myself out there and continue to improve all at the same time! easier said than done for sure. i will say that saying the dreaded words is never as bad as i think it will be in my mind (in my mind it's like i have a heart attack while blocking, hah!), and it gets easier to say it as i continue to try. good luck with everything, that's awesome that you got into Daoism, too, small world. :-D i also was reading some buddhist sutras, but the daoist works (specifically the ones you mentioned) made a big difference for me as well. this thought about letting go, learning how to move through the world effortlessly, it's great stuff!