I'm 33 and have dealt with pain & depression my whole life bc of stuttering...do not turn to drugs please! Believe me they make you feel way worse in the long run and then you may end up hurting yourself as a way out...I just quit heavy smoking and alcohol abuse and even though I'm still a anxiety ridden, socially awkward, depressed mess I feel more in control of my life..drugs only temporarily take pain & anxiety away for a short time and then you feel worse afterward...I recommend trying to get therapy and see if it helps you. With some people it does wonders. I wish I could give advice to help with the daily suffering we stutterers go through but I just never found answers..I have been keeping more to myself as I get older and that feels more relaxing but more lonely at the same time. And I'm mentally declining & getting more anxiety & stuttering worse as a result I think..Its easy for people to say just let go and not care what other people think but of people chronically think your a retard everywhere you go it does matter..i feel like I mind as well not even meet new ppl anymore..I dont see the point? Anyway sorry for the rant..but yeah look into therapy & see if they can't help.