Well said! I also had those feelings but decided not to give up. I found two philosophical aspirations for this: 1- stoicism from Greek philosophy and the 2- to continue living as full as I could just out of curiosity. I was like a frog from the parable that fell into the bowl with milk without any chance to get out. However it continued her attempts until the frog suddenly felt sold base under it. It occurred that with the struggling the frog changed its environment from hopelessly liquid to solid (butter). So the frog was able to get out and get delicious food at the same time…