Was any of you passive aggressively bullied?

Was any of you passive aggressively bullied? I never was really bullied. But I always felt like I was an easy target. And people/friends would just out of nowhere say stupid/rude stuff to me that I doubt they'd say to someone else. I think being shy does that. But I'm terrified. I just can't loosen up around people so I become reserved, to at least ensure they respect me. I had a "friend" which I didn't even like, tell me out of nowhere that I must have been the girl that sat alone during school in a corner crying by herself.And that's why she is friends with me. I had a guy randomly ask me if I was virgin. And when we were playing a guessing drinking game a girl said I look like the type that would be the first to leave a party. Like I hate these comments. I've done SO many rhings trying to overcome my fear and it's still not enough. Do you know how difficult it fucking is to out yourself out there when tou 100% now tou will be negatively judged and or ridiculed for sth you can't control? If I didn't stutter I'm 100% sure I'd be much much better than you coulf ever imagine being. But I'm stuck sith this birth defect that gives you the upper hand and the strength to put me down. I've become a lone wolf since then. I don't want to be associated with people that pitt me or have to pretend to be someone else. I have to do a lot of internal work until I can socialise and have friend's again. It has traumatized me. I'm tired of feeling flawed and not enough.