This is how I stutter aswell, more or less. It's pretty spot on. The initiating conversations and asking questions is a killer for me. I just can't make it happen, or I could, but then it would be obvious for the person whom I'm talking to that I'm a stutterer, and that is something my brain, how stupid it is, never could accept. That's why my social capacity is worse than a child's. So, I totally know how you feel, it's a bummer. I really don't know what I am so afraid of. I mean, who the fuck cares if someone notices my stutter? And what other person than yourself dwells about your stuttering? Nobody gives a shit. That is the truth. However, I can't fully take this insight to heart. I have these walls around my stutter which hinders new things to enter, and they have been holding me back for as long as I can remember. How I would want to be an open stutterer. I wish the whole world knew that I had a stutter, and understood everything I've gone through. But I haven't even the guts to tell my co-workers about my condition. I make everything so difficult. Do you recognize yourself in this? Damn, I sympathize with you and everyone else on this community. Knowing that there are folks out there going through more or less the same thing that I am, makes my heart feel heavy.