I feel worthless

I feel worthless Speech seems to come so easy to people, they don’t even think about the words they say. They can talk and laugh and get their points across no problem. I wish I could be like them, I’m so tired of this stutter, it’s been 18 years of this and I’m getting sick of myself. Every time I talk to someone I feel like a burden for them, like it’s a chore to listen to me, people often lose interest in conversation with me. Makes me doubt my worth. Will I ever live a happy life? Will I ever find a girlfriend? These thoughts constantly run through my mind. I just wish I could cure it or at least manage it in some way. I’d be a much happier person.