>Maybe my life would have turned out differently. I mean it's better now, but it's been fucking rough! I get this sentiment 10000%. Shame is a strong emotion that doesn't go away easily. None of us deserve to feel shame due to how we speak, but here we are, all feeling shameful. Violence and aggression isn't "the answer", but it sure can be a therapeutic tool when wielded correctly. I'm glad things are going better for you. Trials and tribulations build perseverance, character, and hope.