How I experience stuttering and its impact on my life. Anyone can relate?

How I experience stuttering and its impact on my life. Anyone can relate? Stuttering prevents me from living fulfilling social interactions and enjoying positive life experiences. I notice this in three phases: before, during, and after social interactions. 1. Pre-social interaction Before meeting someone, whether one-to-one or in a group, I anticipate conversations in my mind. In these scenarios I’m fully myself: witty, sharp, and engaging. I bring up ideas, share comments, and enjoy the flow. These daydreams feel more real and rewarding than what usually happens in reality. 2. Real-life situation When the interaction actually happens, stuttering blocks me. I can’t find the words in my mind, I stumble or stop myself from speaking out of fear of embarrassment. Knowing I’ll stutter badly, I often hold back from saying things I want to say. I feel silenced by the condition, unable to express who I am. 3. Post-social interaction Afterwards, I feel the sharp contrast between expectation and reality. I couldn’t express myself as I imagined, and that leaves me frustrated, unfulfilled, and drained. It feels like wasted potential. My mind replays the interaction over and over, correcting it with the words I wanted to say but couldn’t, which would have made the experience more positive and rewarding. Just like before the event, I end up living more in imagined scenarios than in reality. It has nothing to do with not liking the company. In fact, I find the external input of people I spend time with very positive most of the time. It’s about the inability to express myself. This process repeats daily. Whether it’s helping someone with directions, talking to a colleague at work, or joking with friends. Because I spend so much time anticipating and replaying, I live mostly in my head, while real life feels frustrating and empty. This loop of anticipation, silence, replay, and rumination feeds into feelings of depression and makes it hard to stay focused or motivated.