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I fixed Stuttering Hey there lovely people! This post may be wild, just like most of us here. So yeah, let's get to it! I've always considered myself to be a bit different from everyone (which is something I'm sure a lot of us have in common!). I've had a stutter for as long as I can remember, and my parents had tried all sorts of "home remedies," and of course, the visits to the doctor didn't help. Not that it mattered, I knew I was different because of the emotional depth, the ability to make "wiser" decisions sometimes, and finally, but most importantly, when the world would all seem like it was about to burn, I was able to feel pain, love, and "bliss" and so much more when I would look up towards the sunset sky with tears in my eyes (and get gorgeous goosebumps). Back then, it would feel like I was in connection with a higher being (I wished dearly for it), but this is something I'm still looking into. One thing I did realize (with more practice of putting myself in that "state"), was that with an appropriate environment and mental wellbeing (or the lack of it) would put me in variations of this state. Variations where (I would drop the extra thoughts and would be purely happy, or purely angry (depending on the reason/ circumstance) and would want to act upon my reality in the emotion I had finalized before. But you see, I could never hold on to a single emotion for too long. So by the time I would wake up the next day, it'd be a mess all over again. Oh, also, I was horny as hell. So all the hormonal turmoils during my teenage didn't help either. I never really liked my parents a lot (due to reasons), but that did not mean they didn't love me (heck, MOST of us are horrific at expressing ourselves, so give people and yourself some slack). But my shift to college meant I could finally live a life away from their controlling selves, and let myself be who I wanted, away from controlling and judging eyes (due to my particular friend circle as well). So I started enjoying life, I started believing and finally started living. Then college got over, and as I was letting go of the substances I picked up, I realized that I had almost cured my "ADHD/ADD" like symptoms after a few days of peace and detox (which I got at home). Then I shifted to another city for work, and after a year of free living and "enjoyment," I have realized that this current state of mind is perhaps the most peaceful I've ever been in my whole life. I don't stutter anymore, I don't have to deal with 5+ different streams of thought because I've sorted and unified most of them. I have fixed my anxiety (70% at least), my anger issues (99%), my substance abuse issues (will need more time to see how this goes), and maybe even relationship/friendship issues (now having risen above the usual banter and bs, most of what people talk/live about seems utterly meaningless). Now when I look at my parents, I see them suffering with so many self-imposed mental blockages like I did once, and it's just hard to get over it unless someone tells you about it, or you're acutely self-aware and willing to listen and make love to yourself. Be yourself, believe yourself, and at the very least, learn to love yourself (because one day, it will all matter to you, or none of it will. So believe wisely and have the space to change/improve when things unfold differently). All of the above was to hammer these points home. Now this will lead you down a path of "solution-oriented thinking" as I like to call it; and you'll find the roots of thought behind each of your actions and emotions. Oh, and also one last thing, it seems stuttering happens because our mind isn't in the most optimal state to talk or converse at a particular moment. Like how many people are zoned out for a large part of the day; stuttering is just your body (and mind) telling you they're not used to talking/understanding people at this present state (this may be due to anxiety, lack of a good diet, lack of good sleep, or simply you're not used to talking to people, so talk more!). There can be a host of other emotions and factors affecting all this, so try to put yourself in the happiest, most knowledge-absorbent state if possible. It'll almost feel like the dominoes hindering your mind from thinking broadly are all falling, and you'll unlock newer and broader views on life. TRUST ME ON THIS. Oh, and those of you who think differently; try to explore all the different ways of thinking, talk to different people, write down your deepest emotions. Then come up with your own best way of thinking (thats suited perfectly to you). This is simply growth and maturity. Which can happen in unexpected and new ways. I had read years ago about a person who would stutter a lot, then once they consumed mushrooms, it all just went away for good. I think substances like mushrooms help connect us to the deepest thoughts and bring out their conclusions/reasoning. I just did it using a different path. You can all do it too. So do you dare to truly enjoy this gift of life? You can push yourself to states of mind where no one can touch you. Ever. **tldr;** Believe in yourself. And keep talking to that "conscience" and integrate it into your ever-present state of mind. This post goes out to u/AtomR. Many will be skeptics, like I once was. But have faith my friend. Have faith and work towards solutions, the world will surely bring forth yours. If I can do it, ya'll definitely can. Much love and strength to you on this beautiful path.