Yeah but atleast you where able to get to that point as shitty as that situation is. I would never want to experience that shit ofc...that's also one of my fears is to get into a toxic relationship where my SO loses respect for me & I have to go through this type of crap..I feel it's better to just say fuck it & keep to myself forever and just pay some $ with no strings attached. Because like you said we usually pay one way or the other.