Maybe you might want to try and get your stuttering under control or practice acceptance. For many of us who stutter, we judge ourselves far more harshly than others. However, maybe in your case you’ve just been unlucky. Either way, getting control of your stutter is possible as is just accepting you have one but it’s only part of who you are, easier said than done but it can be done. I’m presently creating a series of videos on stuttering so maybe some of them might help you in some way, search Rob Woolley on YouTube.