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Help! So, I have a stutter, also really bad social anxiety, I guess the social anxiety came because of the stuttering and the stuttering became worse because of the anxiety, I find it incredibly hard to talk to people I don’t know, especially if someone else is watching, I’m currently an apprentice at a crafts store, I only have three days left and I’ve been here two days, I wanted to go here because I thought it would help me put my self out there and challenge my self to speak to more people! But omg, when costumers come in and ask me where certain items are( I’ve been here two days so obviously I don’t know where anything is!, I panick immediately, I either say that I don’t think we have that item( even tho we definitely do) or I point to somewhere where I feel like it could be, and when they come back saying they didn’t find it, my anxiety from knowing that I just pointed to random spot is over my head and I just say “ sorry” in the most nerve wreck ass voice, instead of treating the costumer like real service people and asking my colleagues where that item could be, because I know I would not be able to open my mouth and ask my colleagues with out stuttering like crazy, I have three days left and i don’t know what To do! I really want to leave and I’ve been near having a full on meltdown multiples times already, but I don’t show it of course, I just stand there looking half happy and half suicidal, meanwhile I’m using every single power in my body to NOT grab my bag and run home and never return, I’m going back to tomorrow , I feel like such a horrible person, I am only an apprentice but still I should have the ability to speak properly to costumers! I’m not rude to them ofc but I’m super anti social because of my crippling anxiety( wich leads to severe stuttering), so I can’t blame the costumers and my colleagues if they think I don’t care, but in reality I care SO MUCH, so much about what people will think if I accidentally stutter when I speak to them, I’m so tired. If anyone knows how to relive this situation in some way, please let me know! Any tips on how to stop the crippling anxiety and the severe stutter that comes with it, also does drinking caffeine help or will it make it worse?(btw English isn’t my native language so don’t mind if the grammar isn’t the best)