I’m new here

I’m new here I’m twenty three, and I am an actor/singer. I graduated with a degree in Theatre and have found success on stage without much of much stutter getting in the way. But I’m scared. I still fear every audition, every interview. Even when I succeed at doing a monologue or a show, I nitpick points where I might’ve stuttered a bit. I’ve been told that it’s not that very noticeable. And I know people are being honest with me. But there’s still this force in my life that I feel telling me to give up on my dreams. That nobody wants to work with somebody with a stutter, even if it is mostly overcome-able. It’s an exhausting lifestyle, when the thing you’re being told you’re good at is something primarily speaking baSed. I just want to own my stutter and not let the fear dictate what I pursue in the arts. The anxiety and the fear that comes with having a stutter is too much lately. I’ve had to quit my most recent job cause it was retail and I was struggling with it. The constant talking was too much. I want so badly to be competent and live my life to the fullest but right now I’m struggling so hard with it all.