Yea, I think it's mostly because I see my own face in video calls/work meetings. It's just like a hit to my ego seeing myself struggle so much to string together an elementary sentence. Whereas other people in the call can speak mouthfuls effortlessly. I try to pause and give myself more time, but as I mentioned in my post, I feel like I start having an outer body experience and can't control anything besides trying to shove the word out so I can stop talking.