Stuttering has made me fall to my knees, I'm 100% hopeless

Stuttering has made me fall to my knees, I'm 100% hopeless So I'm [19, M] currently in my first semester at a reputated and one of the leading universities of my country. There's a club in my uni that is well known for organizing workshops/seminars, national intra university competitions and so many other things. In order to be a member of that club, you have to go through a three-day long recruitment process where you will be judged by your communication skills, public speaking skills, critical thinking skills and teamworking skills. I wanted to be a part of that club mainly to increase my network that would help me get a decent job after graduating. I applied for the club and throughout the recruitment process, I did good in pretty much all the tasks I was given, except I f*cked up my presentation BADLY. I stuttered, I wass hella nervous, I was SHAKING in front of 50+ students. My public speaking skill is so horrible that I was eliminated after that round. In fact, I litetally was the WORST public speaker of all the other applicants. Before applying for the club, I knew about my stuttering issue and glossophobia (fear of public speaking). I still applied because I thought coming out of my comfort zone and pushing myself to cross my limit would bring something good. How f*cking wrong was I. Oh man, that feeling of embarrassment and humiliation is ineffable. My soul legit wanted to escape my body when I was facing these unwanted speechblocks. I literally thought what's the point of being alive if I'm not even able to orally express myself properly. I wish I was eloquent. I wish I had the ability to articulate myself clearly. I wish I wasn't a stutterer. I wish... I wish I didn't exist in the first place.