>Basically fulfilment and happiness should be intrinsic, not extrinsic But that's the whole problem. It mostly is intrinsic! I hate myself, I hate what this stutter has made me become. A jaded, bitter mess with no motivation or hope. I hate how awkward and weird it has made me. I hate how I can't get it out of my head whenever it happens and it ruins my day. I barely even run into blatant assholes that make fun of me. That mostly happened in school.