Hi. Just saw your post. I'm a lifelong stammerer too. I don't think offing yourself because you stammer is a good thing. In the UK where I live, a TV personality called Gareth Gates really brought stammering in to the open, so it's a lot more accepted these days I think. And in my experience most people you speak to couldn't care less if you stammer.. if you're wary , when you meet someone new, just tell them you stammer.