I get you. I'm 47 and I'm realizing I have a lot of pent up anger I never dealt with because of stuttering my entire life. Between being bullied in school, to feeling trapped in my body because I can't properly express myself all the time, and the fear that I can't get a word out in random encounters and people judging me. I definitely feel like I have PTSD, and lately...or maybe it's been for a few years now, I get triggered by little things and feel I need to lash out at the world. Especially if I see an injustice or someone just doing something I feel is wrong...like throwing litter on the ground, or cutting me off in traffic, I snap and start yelling at the person. Anyway, enough for my rant. I'm currently looking into therapy myself. But also joined the discord group, just so I have someplace I can relate with people. I've belonged to support groups in the past...none stuttering related, like CODA (Co-dependents Anonymous), or even just a yoga or meditation class, and those have helped too. I just haven't made the time to do them....which is me not prioritizing my life correctly. I do engage in physical activities, like running and weight lifting, but I feel that makes me avoid social situations and alienates me more. I know, it sucks. I also feel I'd be much more advanced in my career at this point and although I'm comfortable financially, I also feel too complacent, just because I'm still that trapped scared little boy from school!